Last Day on Holiday

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to tell that precious one about me

something I always hide

something I never tell

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to see him

the precious one who make me happy

the eyes like night sky

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to see his smile

smile that never fade in my memory

that calming smile I want to see again

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to see him laughing

for it casting warmth on my heart

a calming nostalgic laugh

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to hear his voice

I want to hear his laugh

I want to hear his protective-speech over me

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in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to hold his hand

but somehow I cant say it

I want to hug him

but somehow a dark force forbid me doing it

I want to look at him directly in his eyes

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I realize things arent what used to be

I hurt him too much, I got hurt too much

I want both of us to be happy

I really want to

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I ask something inside my head

"was I really loving him?"

but then my heart aches

longing for his presence

as if I could die

without his smile on my mind

without his voice echoes on my head

without his gestures..

without his gentle pat on my head

without him...

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I cried

I want to see him

I want to listen his voice

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I realized

I'm sick

lovesick because of you

in my last day on this unprepared holiday

I want to tell you

I love you, I love you